- četrtek | 19. novembra 2020
- 19:00 - 21:00
Občasno, na kakšen deževen dan, sem se lotila ustvarjanja. To me je zelo pomirjalo, dober občutek mi je dalo to, da sem nekaj naredila z lastnimi rokami. To sem jaz narisala in nihče drug. Zelo lep občutek!
Meseca marca, ko se je začela karantena, tudi jaz nisem vedela kaj bom sama s seboj. Račune bo potrebno plačati, a prihodkov ni bilo. Takrat sem se končno opogumila in sem si rekla, da bom poskusila narediti portret, pa kar bo, bo. Spomnila sem se, da sem kot majhni Nenad na otoku Rab občudovala ulične slikarje, ki so slikali portrete; ko sem prišla do nekaj denarja sem si končno dala narisat svoj portret – niso bili poceni. Obesila sem ga v svojo spalnico in poklicala mami, da ga pogleda. Bila sem vsa ponosna, da sem končno jaz na steni. Mamo so namreč iritirali posterji Boy Georga, Duran Duran, David Bowieja in podobnih takrat velikih glasbenih imen. Ko je mami vstopila v sobo je doživela največji šok. Vpila je« Skini tog pedera s stene a si slišo!!!!« Stisnilo me je pri srcu, od jeze sem pograbila svoj portret. Mami je ugotovila, da sem na sliki jaz in me želela prepričat, naj slike ne uničim. Bila sem tako jezna, da je slika končala na milijon koščkih. Ja, zgodba za kakšno komedijo ali dramo!
V karanteni sem doživela preporod, ugotovila sem da se v meni skriva talent, za katerega nisem vedela, da obstaja. Ponosno in previdno sem svoje umetnine pošiljala najprej mojim prijateljem, ki niso mogli verjeti, da sem to jaz naslikala. V času karantene sem se preživljala s svojim lastnim delom in končno dojela, da ne smemo poslušati okolice, ki nam pravi, da nismo sposobni ali da ne znamo. Prepričana sem, da imamo vse_i veliko talentov, le pogumne_i moramo biti, da pridemo do njih.
Zdaj bolj pogumno vztrajam, v nadalnem življenju in v starosti si želim ustvarjati za svojo dušo in srce.«
Teme črpa predvsem iz občutkov, ki jih kvir in trans osebe doživljamo ob zatonu kapitalizma.
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Kindly invited to the online café evening, where we will dedicate time and (online) space to a conversation with TransUmetnicami_ki. Salome, Nuka Horvat, Verity Ritchie and Orlando Lovekovski will share more about their artistic expression, creation and works with us. You can find their presentations lower down the text and you are also invited to check their websites and other links to their works, which are also available in addition to the description.
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»As a child, I had no desire to paint. I didn’t like art at school either. I’ve always been told that I don’t know how to do this and that I’m not good at it. The teachers did not know how to present this kind of art to me, did not dedicate their attention to it or their effort in me. Probably these are also the reasons why I didn’t discover this talent. At the age of forty, I became interested in spirituality and meditation. That was also the first time I felt the urge to paint; of course with the belief that I don’t know how to do it, since you need to have some sort of education, take courses, have talent. I started with smaller paintings, more abstract, which I didn’t think at the time were anything special. I even sold a few of them, but I didn’t pay much importance to that. Occasionally, on rainy days, I started creating. It calmed me down a lot, it made me feel good to do something with my own hands. It was me who drew that, nobody else. A very nice feeling!
In March, when quarantine began, I also didn’t know what I was going to do with myself. The bills will have to be paid, but there was no revenue. That’s when I finally got up the courage and told myself I was going to try to make a portrait, and it will be what it will be. I remembered that as little Nenad on the island of Rab, I was admiring street painters who painted portraits; when I got some money I finally had my portrait painted – they weren’t cheap. I hung it in my bedroom and called my mom to look at it. I was all proud that I was finally on the wall. My mother was irritated by the posters of Boy George, Duran Duran, David Bowie and similar great names of that time. When my mother entered the room, she experienced the greatest shock. She shouted “Take that fagot off the wall can you hear me !!!!” It gripped my heart, I ripped of my portrait with anger. Mom realized it was me in the painting and wanted to convince me not to ruin it. I was so angry that the it ended up in million pieces. Yes, a story for comedy or drama!
During quarantine, I experienced a rebirth, I found that there was a talent lurking inside me that I didn’t know existed. I proudly and carefully sent my artworks first to my friends who couldn’t believe I painted it myself. During the quarantine period, I made a living with my own work and finally realized that we should not listen to those around us who tell us that we are not capable or that we don’t have the knowledge. I’m sure we all have a lots of talents, we just have to be brave to discover them.
Now I persevere more courageously, in my future life and in my old age I want to create for my soul and heart.«
Niki Lapkovski in finishing a Master’s degree at ALOU. They primarily work in the area of graphic design but also move towards illustration, painting and comics and have participated in several group exhibitions. They creates music in the Lovekovski duet and performs it, when there is no quarantine. Because of the quarantine they also miss playing dance rhythms in Klub Monikel as DJ Orlando.
Kavarniški večeri so nastali s ciljem odpiranja javnega prostora ustvarjalkam_cem LGBTQ na vseh področjih umetnosti in želje po ustvarjanju novega prostora za druženje, uživanje ob glasbi, skodelici čaja ali kave, smehu in dobri družbi na pobudo Društva Appareo, Klub Tiffany in Legebitra
Kavarniške večer organizirata Društvo informacijski center Legebitra in Klub Tiffany (ŠKUC – Kulturni center Q).
Dogodek sofinancira Mestna občina Ljubljana.